apartment hunting.

I'm going tomorrow!
I'm worried all the good, clean, semi-inexpensive, close to campus places are gonna be taken :/

I'll keep my faithful 4 followers posted because I know you'll all be worrying.

john denver.

my mom and i just watched an old concert of john denver on tv so i dug into our cd collection and pulled out his greatest hits to put on my computer.

i absolutely love his music. his voice is so pure and soft and has no fake electronics added to it. all of his songs speak from his heart and his lyrics are just beautiful. no one writes songs like this anymore.

its so tragic that this world had to lose talent like his. my parents both got to see him in concert multiple times before he died (and one of his song's is there wedding song!).

if i ever got the opportunity to do professional recording again, i would love to make a cover album of all of his songs. they are all in my range and think about it, no one ever does his songs anymore. it would be so cool.

i hope thats not one of my life-long dreams that never comes true. i took recording for granted when i was a kid because i didnt know any better. all i saw was the long days standing in a studio with men who smelled like BO coming in every 5 seconds to correct the microphones. if i had a chance to do it all over again, i would make sure i never let it go.

so far so good.

sitting on my bed at home looking at the fat mess of shit i have to put somewhere else. how is it possible for me to have enough stuff to fill two bedrooms completely? and how is it that i never have anything to wear, and no place to put any of my clothes? sheesh!

it is good to be home though. i love sleeping in my own bed. even though its teeny weeny here, i like to burrow and it fits me perfectly.
random fact: i still sleep in the first bed i ever owned...

i think im going up on monday to look for a place to live in boulder. i hope i can find something not too expensive. for the last few days ive been kinda getting caught in my own head, most likely because of the sadness of leaving my girls in kansas, but now that i am home i have this urge to go up to boulder and see it again or something. im kind of excited. its going to be a new adventure and i really think im ready to take it on.

man i do NOT want to clean this room. its out of control.

also, i changed the layout of my blog like a week ago, and i dont really like it now. it looks so bland and plain and not me at all. i need something FUNNER. i dont know how to work this thing to make it my own other than to pick from the like 5 layout choices it gives you. HMPH.

oh yeah, and my fish babyyy survived the 8 hour drive in a water bottle in my cup-holder and is now happily swimming in her bowl. what a trooper.

i have so much to do. BLEH.
iiiiiii dont wanna work. i just wanna bang on the drum all dayyy.

well, this rant is over. peace out cub scout.

goodbyes

i just said goodbye to two very important people in my life.
and tomorrow i have to say goodbye to 4 more.

its gonna be rough. :(

one final left then an 8 hour drive back to colorado through this:

good thing ill have the bestie.

JILLBERT

as i typed the title, i said it aloud. jill, my best friend from Colorado replies "WHAT CHELSEA"

and that is our relationship in a nutshell.
ps. she just said to me "thats a damn good blog."
i like her. :)

2 down, 2 to go.

Well my first two finals are done. And thank god. I don't like having two tests in one day. in fact, i don't really like having two of anything in one day. but then again...who does.

Jill came today. It's always good to see her. and i definitely never thought i would see her in Kansas, that's for sure.

I break down when I think about leaving my girls. My room is getting more and more empty. We started packing my car a little bit, and the boxes and emptiness of the room I have lived in for the past year just makes me sad. I don't like that feeling of leaving with no return, ya know?

It's kinda sad not getting to have a college yearbook. I want the people I know to sign it so I can remember my life at KU when I'm telling my grandkids about my life. Not that I'll ever forget, but I like having little reminders.

observation: all the pictures in my room are of my life at home from high school. All the pictures in my new room in Boulder will be of these last two years.

*big sigh* <--that's all I seem to be doing lately. that, and staring at walls.

Ma.

*here again, procrastinating while i should be studying*

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY.
I have an amazing mother. We don't always get along, but she is such a strong and determined person, and when it all comes down to it, she loves me and I love her.
PLUS: without her I wouldn't be alive....so obviously I'm gonna love her, DUH!

Not the best picture of us, but it's all I got right now. It works. And I still love her the same.