house sitting.

My parents and brother went to Seattle for the weekend to look at colleges. It's been weird not having them around the house.

I decided I don't like taking care of the animals all by myself. I feel guilty when I have to leave and put my dog in her kennel, one of my cats shits and pees all over the laundry room whenever he feels like it, and I feel like I am constantly letting them in and out and in and out of the house all damn day. GAH.

Plus, I don't dig being home alone. Especially to sleep. There's nothing to eat and I am so tempted to get fast food for every meal just to avoid cooking. Not a good idea on weight watchers. Noooo sirey.

MJ.

Michael Jackson currently holds 49 of the top 100 itunes downloads, and 9 of the top 10 albums on itunes. Talk about a legend.

I still feel like I am mourning the death of him. I feel like a family member died with my state of absolute melancholy-ness. I feel kind of numb, actually. Like a piece of me really did die along with him. He was so influential and inspirational. It just seems so surreal.

I know a lot of people keep mentioning that Farah Faucett's "thunder was stolen" when Michael Jackson died on the same day, but the way I see it...we all half expected her to leave us. She has had a rare form of cancer for years and had even been doing a documentary/biography on it, so we all knew it was only a matter of time, as harsh as that may sounds. MJ on the other hand....came out of no where. Maybe that's the reason it just doesn't feel real.

I have actually cried twice. And I am not one to cry much in movies or TV shows or even when a celebrity dies...I just don't always have the emotional capacity for tears at everything. But this...this was life altering to me. Maybe it has to do with the fact that I knew him? Or maybe it was just because of the shock, but either way I still feel completely and utterly in denial.

I find myself staring at walls and humming "You Are Not Alone" at random times. He was a truely amazing artist and to have such an impact on the world that everyone forgets about todays artists in order to put him back at the top says so much about his accomplishments and influence on the world. He truely will be missed. More than missed, if that's possible.

I have no doubts that his legendary status will live on, and I will have my children grow up the same way I did listening to his music from a young age. He will always be the King Of Pop, and I hope he is smiling down from heaven right now, realizing how much he truely did for the world and how much he impacted all of our lives. Whatever the autopsy results show, doesn't matter. He is in a happier place now where he can be whoever he wants to be, with no one to judge or stop him.

Rest In Peace, Michael. <3

Week 5=5lbs

Week 5 of my weight watchers was a success! I got my first 5 pounds and a gold star to show for it. I'm excited. I'm now halfway to my personal goal and 8 pounds away from the Weight Watchers goal which is pretty epic. It's starting to get better, easier, and more motivational.

Yipee!

The King of Pop.

"The King of Pop." A title you can never deny, and can never take away.
Michael Jackson is a legend. He changed music forever. MTV became what it is today because of him.
Think about this: Bad, Thriller, Billie Jean, Beat It, Smooth Criminal, The Way You Make Me Feel, All Night, You Are Not Alone, Man in the Mirror, Don't Stop Till You Get Enough, Rock With You
Not to Mention: I Want You Back, ABC, and I'll Be There
You call yourself a "fan" of music? Who do you think inspired most artists today? You think you're a fan of dancing? Who do you think coined one of the most famous dance moves of all time?

This is really heart-breaking and tragic to me. For those of you who don't know, I am going to basically just display the one secret about myself that I don't freely tell everyone. I sang with Michael Jackson when I was 5 years old on his "HIStory" album. Every time this is ever brought up, the first reactions I get are "did he touch you?" It drives me crazy. I met him. I went to Neverland ranch on a family invitation to a house party he had. He was an incredibly nice person. Yes, he may have had a weird obsession with children (probably because he was abused and never knew what it was like to be a child) but he never meant any harm by it. He never had bad intentions. I can say first hand that he did everything in his power to make sure I felt comfortable and never did anything weird to me. Can you at least try to think about where he is coming from? His childhood was ripped away from him. He never got to experience a normal childhood. He lived a sad life, and never fully felt like he belonged. So make fun of him all you want, because I'm sure you have no problems relating to his issues.

I think it's really pathetic that on the day this amazingly talented man dies, the first thing people turn to is the word "child molester" and "pedophile." Do the words "NOT GUILTY" mean anything to you? He was proclaimed not guilty and cleared of all accusations. So stop talking about it. It's over, it's not an argument anymore. So the next time you feel like bringing it up, don't. I've heard all the jokes. They really are just ignorant. I don't find them funny at all.

It's not funny, it's not cool to make fun of someone, regardless of who they are. Michael Jackson is the King of Pop so SHOW SOME RESPECT. You don't know him, you don't know what kind of person he was so shut your mouth if you have nothing nice to say. Haven't you ever noticed that only harsh drama gets put on the news? They would never report on what a great person he was because it wouldn't sell. Think about it. And how would you feel if you lived your life being a victim of the media, being constantly judged and made fun of, only to die and have the same things being said about you when you're gone? It doesn't matter that he had plastic surgerys and looked abnormal. It doesn't matter what color his skin is. Nothing matters, people. Get over the things you think about him and realize that he was an extremely talented man who changed the music industry forever.

Regardless of what everyone says and thinks about him, he was nice to me, nice to my family, and he changed my life by allowing me to work with him. He was a great man on many levels. I will never forget his kindness, or his music.

"If you want to make the world a better place, take a look at YOURSELF and make a change."

pool time fun.

Not having a summer job and just relying on babysitting a few times a week was the best decision I ever made. Literally. I am making way more money doing this than I ever have at a "real" job, and on top of that, I am almost never bored.
As much as these little 5 year olds drive me crazy sometimes, other times they absolutely make my day. They remind me of myself at their age, actually. Obsessed with the water, taking swimming lessons, and daring to swim to the deep end all by themselves. They are water babies, like me. And now that I have experienced their love of the water, I am looking forward to even more pool days with them. They are so cute.

the dress.

My mom and I went dress shopping today for my cousin's wedding!
It's in September.
It's in New York.
It's going to be fab.

Anyways, I didn't really find anything that I was in LOVE with, except this one dress that I couldn't stop thinking about. But the way my mind works when I am about to buy something is just constant second guessing. I couldn't decide if it was worth the $140 for my mom to spend. So, finally after finding a 20% off coupon for Macy's in her purse, we decided to buy it. It's really cute and in style, knee length, but the wedding is an afternoon/evening kinda thing on the beach. The dress however, is dark blue and satin. So, I don't really know if it will fit the theme.

Anyways, when I got home, I looked it up online and lo and behold, there it is for ohhhh $55. Actually, it may or may not be the same dress. It looks the same, other than the color, but it looks shorter. I am totally rambling about this dress but, I can't decide if I should return it and order this other one online that is a different color, or just stick with the one I got today.

The website has the picture protected so I can't post it on here, but I know you all are dying to know what I decide to do, so I'll keep you updated. :)

UP

I finally saw UP this afternoon.
I literally started crying within the first 5 minutes and didn't stop until we left. It was just so heart-wrenching.
I think it especially hit home for me and my mom because my grandpa just died in January and it reminded us of him and my grandma and such.
I don't want to give away the movie to anyone who hasn't seen it yet, but it really is incredible and worth seeing. Disney doesn't usually make those really sad movies anymore like Bambi or The Fox and the Hound, but this one I would say was close, if not on, the same level as those.

Then there's this that a friend showed me to top it off:
http://www.ocregister.com/articles/pixar-up-movie-2468059-home-show

So very sad, but also bittersweet in a sense. Life is funny that way.